Conversations with God

Do you ever just ask God tons of questions big and small? I think this is part of communicating with God, part of becoming friends with God. He is already our friend and knows way more about life, our questions, and ourselves, but sometimes it's us learning to be his friend. Psalms 139 is my favorite Psalm. I love that verse that says search me God and know me find any ways in me that are not like yours (this is my version ). In that Psalm, we find out that God created us, and he did so fearfully and wonderfully. We learn that he knew us when we were being formed in the dark and hidden place of our mother's womb (side note he planned you even if your parents did not). I tend to be a little critical of my self and often insecure. I am learning though to ask God questions. He is the one who created me why wouldn't he know the answer and we cannot change what we do not know is a problem. I often have a problem of comparing myself to others, yep this is me being real Y'all! Now ordinarily when I get in these moods where I start down the trail of I can't , and why am I not like so and so, or even why do I care so much. Usually, I can sure get the devil to jump on my bandwagon with me and tell me everything I am not and remind me of some things I even forgot. But today I simply asked God "why did you create me with such a tender heart"?
 He answered back with the sweetest answer ever "it's my most favorite thing about you" From there he began to tell me I created you to bring comfort to my people, to be sensitive to my people's needs, to show them how to lean and trust in me. What I have created for you only a tender heart can complete.
But I said God with a tender heart so much hurt seems to be involved.
If you were never hurt, sad, lonely, depressed, hopeless, or sick how could you know that I am your joy, love, hope, peace, and all that you need?
And as only God can do he said you know how you feel when you spend time creating a meal you think your family will love and someone comments back how much they didn't like it?
Well, God spent his time creating me forming me picking out my gifts and talents and I was telling him I didn't like them. I wanted something else. I wanted something more than the uniqueness that he has given me.  I was saying its to hard it's to hurtful its too lonely and why?
And God is saying all the things that you're complaining about, about yourself are the very things that set you apart from the rest of the world. These are the things I love about you.
 I never thought about God loving things about me. Now I know God loves me but think about it he has certain qualities that he has placed in all of us and he put them there for a reason. One because its something the world needs but also its something he loves. Anytime you create something or for us less crafty people when we know certain people there is always that favorite quality. Like my mother in law who could encourage a paper bag, I have a friend who could hug the loneliness away, my organized friend, my practical friend, and the list goes on. God was saying to me not only does he love me but there are things about me that are just his favorite and it happens to be one of my least favorite things about myself. Which I now know its a waste of time and mental energy to critique yourself so thoroughly. Because though I have not yet completed everything God has created me for and obviously I still have issues I have everything I need to be a success and the things that need changed God will show me and then give me the strength and courage to do the work I need to in order to be more like him and the finished product he has in mind. SO yes I am a work in progress. God is still creating me. He is pruning and chiseling away at the things that this world has placed in my life to uncover the diamonds he placed there so many years ago. Are you criticizing Gods work? Stop and have a conversation with God and see what he says he loves about you.
Always,
Christina
Ephesians 1:5-11 Amplified version
5 He predestined and lovingly planned for us to be adopted to Himself as [His own] children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the kind intention and good pleasure of His will— 6 to the praise of His glorious grace and favor, which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved [His Son, Jesus Christ]. 7 In Him we have redemption [that is, our deliverance and salvation] through His blood, [which paid the penalty for our sin and resulted in] the forgiveness and complete pardon of our sin, in accordance with the riches of His grace 8 which He lavished on us. In all wisdom and understanding [with practical insight] 9 He made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure, which He purposed in Christ, 10 with regard to the fulfillment of the times [that is, the end of history, the climax of the ages]—to bring all things together in Christ, [both] things in the heavens and things on the earth. 11 In Him also we have [a]received an inheritance [a destiny—we were claimed by God as His own], having been predestined (chosen, appointed beforehand) according to the purpose of Him who works everything in agreement with the counsel and design of His will,